My name is Molly, I found out I was pregnant about 3 weeks ago. So it puts me at 9 weeks and 3 days or so. I just made my appointment for my first abortion today. It did take me a few weeks to decide what I’d like to do. I’ve never liked children, never even changed a diaper, I never though that I could get PREGNANT. It was never something that could happen to ME. Oh but it did! My boyfriend and I have been together about a year and a half, he lives about 5 hours away and I haven’t seen him in over a month. I went in a week and a half ago to Planned Parenthood for a counseling session to make my decision. You know I had always been pro choice and I always said I would have an abortion I was faced with unplanned pregnancy, but when faced with the decision firsthand, it was not so easy. I have never been so depressed or sick in my life. But in the end I have a right to this procedure and I have a right to privacy, and should anyone find out, I would not ever be sorry. This child is better off to never exist than it is being raised by me. Im a 21 year old girl who works in a call center, is about to start college, lives with her best friend in a downtown apartment, and I like to party and be selfish. And while this child deserves a right to a good life, SO DO I. Being pregnant is not a punishment for having sex when you’re not ready for children, I took every precaution I could. And I see my boyfriend less than every 2 weeks, so what were the chances!?
Well it happened. I have my appointment next friday, I’m not afraid of the pain or how I’ll feel afterwards. I’m afraid of the discomfort, I’m very private.. I know this is the right decision and I am so greatful for this situation. It’s not ideal, but it has opened my eyes to a political view. I’m getting medical insurance, birth control.. I know all of this sounds selfish, but it is my body, right? I’m so thankful for the rights I have now, so much more than ever and now I will never stop fighting for them. I will finish this story next weekend after I go in for the procedure. I feel that it isn’t complete until it’s done.
Well it’s the evening now, I had the abortion done around 10 am this morning. I feel SO happy … although today was also the day my mom passed away years ago … but, SO happy I had the right to this decision. I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday because he was selfish and unsupportive and wouldn’t except one ounce of responsibility. I am finally feeling as if my life is back to normal. The procedure went like this: questions, ultrasound, disolve some icky pills, go back and get a pain shot and a shot of anti-anxiety meds, then my best friend and I talked a little and the nurse and doctor had it done within 7 minutes or so. I was 9 weeks and 5 days. Every single person I was in contact with at the clinic was amazing, so nice, so comforting and understanding. I’ll tell you what, if I had to, I’d do it again. Its almost 8 pm the day of, I slept and relaxed all day and now I’m getting ready to go out and have a few drinks with friends! I will never be sorry for this decision, ever. All my friends and family support my decision and I was in excellent hands at the clinic.
