Mollie’s Story

Thank you so much for the opportunity to tell my story. I am 26 years old and live in the USA. I have had two abortions, one surgical at 18 and one medical at 25. Both were performed when I was about 5-6 weeks pregnant. I was 16 when I became sexually active and used birth control pills for 2 years successfully before I got pregnant. The surgical abortion was done at Planned Parenthood in 1998, and was a pretty shitty experience all around. I arrived at the clinic at 9am and was finally released around 4pm. The waiting, the counseling, and dealing with protesters was stressful. The actual procedure was very painful for me and I was not given access to sedation or pain relief. I remember crying and being told to be quiet. I felt pretty demeaned and depressed afterward, but never sorry for my decision. That was 8 years ago, and I hope conditions have improved since then.

As soon as I was able I went on Depo-Provera to prevent future unwanted pregnancies. When I was ready to have a child, I went off Depo and became pregnant with my daughter, who was born in 2002.

I was tired of the side effects I experienced using hormonal birth control and was using condoms when I became pregnant again in 2005. I didn’t want another surgical, but was prepared to do so if needed. Thankfully medical abortion was available and I chose that route after lots of consideration. I was lucky enough to have a choice in providers this time as well. Instead of going to Planned Parenthood I searched for abortion providers on the Internet and found a doctor close to my home. I also found imnotsorry.net and read every story, paying close attention to those who chose medical abortion. I can never thank you enough for sharing your stories with me and helping me through such an emotional time in my life.

The medical abortion was provided by a wonderful OB-GYN who I am forever grateful to. I made an appointment and was seen almost immediately for an ultrasound and pee test. It was such a different experience from Planned Parenthood. After the tests the doctor brought me back to his office and talked to me like a human being. He gave me the pills and the instructions and I was free to go. The whole visit took about an hour. This was such an empowering thing to seek and receive an abortion with no judgement, no waiting and for me, no pain.

I was prepared for pain, the doctor gave me a prescription for Percocet and I had done lots of research. Many women reported severe cramps similar to a miscarriage. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I never cramped at all even when passing huge clots. The abortion happened that night while I laid in bed reading books and waiting for the pain that never came. I was afraid that it didn’t work, because it was so easy.

When I went for my checkup, I was given another ultrasound which confirmed the pregnancy terminated and I asked for an IUD, which was inserted that very day. I have nothing but good things to say about my medical abortion and would do it again if I ever need to.

I hope this story helps someone to feel like they too can have a positive abortion experience and not feel guilty for it. Knowledge is power. I am not sorry, and you shouldn’t be either.