When I found out I was pregnant, I was 6 weeks into my pregnancy and my pregnancy only lasted 8 weeks in total, however it felt like a century. I found out later that I had a folic acid problem, but for 2 months it felt like I had a tumor and not a baby. I had no energy, I could not cook supper, I did not do laundry for 3 weeks, my boyfriend was basically picking up after me as I walked through the house. My room mates told me that I was a different person, I cannot explain how miserable I was, even before I found out I was pregnant.
The decision to get the abortion was a hard one for me to make because I have had a miscarriage as well as an ectopic pregnancy and the fear of that being my only normal pregnancy was keeping me from making the decision final, however I realized the only reason anyone should have a baby is if they WANT a baby and feel they can support it, not because they are scared this might be it for them. So I made the appointment, I had to endure the worst two weeks of my life waiting for it. I was sick literally ALL the time. I would have my work shirt on, ready to leave, but could not because I had to vomit for 30 minutes every morning first. Food smelled amazing, and one bite of whatever the amazing smell was would turn my stomach. Once I realized it was the pregnancy making me so sick, I started counting down the days to my abortion.
When I arrived at the clinic, it was very nerve wrecking, however I was greeted with a friendly face and was immediately sent to talk to a counselor before I was to undergo the procedure. The counselor made sure I was comfortable with my decision, which I was. The procedure felt like it took 30 seconds, I was in severe pain at first but they say it feels about as bad as your periods do and my period pain was always severe. They put a mask on my face and told me to breathe, and I am not sure what they gave me but I just laughed and laughed. They gave me codeine after because my pain was severe, and that was it! In, out, done! I wasn’t sure how to feel, so I took it easy and watched a few movies with my boyfriend and then went to bed.
The next day, I felt like a miracle happened. My body, felt amazing. The first thing I did was eat breakfast, for the first time in two months, without getting sick. I was happy, so happy, so relieved, like 10000 pounds had been lifted off my shoulders. I am young, 20 years old, but I believe that it was not the stress making me so miserable but the effect the pregnancy hormones had on my body. It has been a week and I still feel amazing and I am so glad I made that choice, and one day when I am ready I will be able to start a healthy diet, folic acid supplements, and have a beautiful pregnancy but this one was not meant to be.
I have no regrets, I am not even apathetic, I am GLAD, so so so GLAD, that I got an abortion.
