Sep 052010

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I am a healthy, happy, 24 year old single woman who, after a lifetime of being overweight and insecure, finally lost all my excess weight and am really starting to enjoy life. I only have 3 goals in life-finish school and get my dream job, marry the man of my dreams, and have a wonderful family. I met a great guy, Rob, and we really hit it off. We spent one wonderful night together and the next weekend he broke up with me. A few weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I was always someone who said, “I believe in a woman’s right to choose, but I could never have an abortion.” With that in my head, I decided to have the baby and raise it all by myself. I would tell Rob and if he wanted to work it out, I would be more than happy to work with him.

As I prepared for the baby, I was beginning to realize that I was terrified and truly unhappy about the pregnancy. At this point, I was 12 weeks along. I had not told anyone except my best friend. As the days went by, I finally told my mom and once I said it out loud, I realized that I did not want this baby. I did not want to be a single mom living in my parents’ basement and try to work full time and go to school. I hated the idea of not being able to give my baby my full self…it just wasn’t fair to everyone involved.

I made the decision to have an abortion and I finally called Rob. He was very supportive and offered to be with me as well as pay for everything. He made sure that it was truly my decision. Because I was already 14 weeks along, I had to have a D&E. It took longer than I had expected and there was a bit of pain. It happened that the day of my abortion was also the 30th anniversary of Roe vs. Wade. I found this not only ironic, but also very comforting. I am sad that I had to make this decision, but I am not sorry I did it. I first felt guilty that I was not distraught and sad over the procedure, but I realize that it was the best decision for me and I am relieved and comfortable with my decision, it doesn’t matter what others think of me, I know that I am not a “murderer” or a “baby killer”. I will have children some day when it is right for me. I am truly thankful for the opportunity to take my life into my own hands and I am not sorry about decision. Remember, this is your life and only you can decide what it best for you.

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