I am a mom of three wonderful children. I love being a mom. However, I had two abortions before I actually was ready for this job. I am not sorry that I chose to end 2 pregnancies. I am sorry that I became pregnant.
At the time that I became pregnant I was in my last semester of my BA. I wanted to graduate and start my career. My boyfriend at the time (now my husband and father of my children) had just graduated fom university and was up to his eye balls in debt. I had been living on toast and mac ‘n cheese for 3 years. We weren’t ready for a baby in any way.
I chose to have an abortion in Ontario where it would be covered by my health insurance at a hospital. This was the biggest mistake other than becoming pregnant. I had to go for 2 ultrasounds, and sign permission slips to allow scientist to use the embryo for science and see nurses, counselors. It was made into such an ordeal that it caused WAY more stress than needed. I chose to go to an abortion clinic the second time and paid cash … I felt much more respected for my decision by their staff and I was treated with dignity.
No one makes it a goal in life to have an abortion. But, for me, it was the right thing to do in the situation I found myself in. I do not lie awake at night second guessing my decisions … my chance to become a parents came later in my life. It just wasn’t meant to be the first two times. I rarely think about it…
