Amber C’s Story

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My name is Amber. I was 27 years old and married for 2 years to a wonderful man. We had just had our first child, a beautiful baby girl. When she was three months old, I had a bad dizzy spell and was feeling sick to my stomach. I was so scared that I was pregnant again.

I went to the drugstore and purchased one of those digital tests. I took it in the bathroom at my sister’s house. I saw the screen say “Pregnant”. My heart sank. A lot of thoughts ran through my head. “What am I going to do?” “How are we going to afford another child?”. My husband had just gotten out of the military and had no job. I shoved the test in my purse and tried not to deal with it.

My husband and I talked about it, and I told him that abortion was the only feasible answer. He was sad … not for the fact that he didn’t agree with the abortion (he is pro choice as well), but that the pregnancy didn’t come when we were better suited to take care of another child. Adoption was out of the question … how would we explain that to his family (they are very weird and would want to adopt the baby themselves). Sadly, the only people besides us who know about it are my sister, mom and two close friends. We would never be able to tell anyone else because of judgement.

I was only 6 weeks along, so I was able to have a medical abortion. I found a clinic that my insurance took. This clinic was a private practice. They didn’t judge, and they were awesome. I took the oral pills and the next day inserted the other pills and took a Vicodin. What I had was a period, basically. I didn’t get sick or anything like that. I don’t think much of the pregnancy, I don’t know if that makes me shallow, or horrible or whatever.

I am not sorry that we did what we did. Our daughter is now 2, and still an only child with no plans for another for a while. I have not regretted for one minute what I did.

Thank you for letting me share this.