I remember the day I found out so clearly. When I took the test, I nearly threw up, mostly because I knew what my boyfriend's response would be, partly because I knew what my decision would have to be. I mean, let's face it, it's not something that we shout and cheer about, but I just knew that it wouldn't be fair to bring a child into the world when I was so screwed up. (And I was right about the boyfriend's response - we broke up immediately)

Luckily for me, I have a wonderful family that sticks by me and supports me. And, so I did have the abortion, with my parents by my side, not ecstatic about it, but wanting what was best for me. The first couple of weeks after I felt nothing. I later went through a bit of a depression, more due to the fact that I was on a self destructive path, partly because I made myself feel guilty for not feeling guilty about it. I have learned since then, that's it's okay to have made the choice and to be fine with it. To have no regrets.

Since my abortion, I have kicked myself in the ass, moved out of the town that I was making so many bad decisions in, and found myself in a place of happiness and fulfillment. I now have a wonderful husband and two children who I love more than life itself. I am able to be the mother that my kids deserve and my parents can just be grandparents (because they would have ended up raising my first).

I'm sure that some people don't feel the same way about their experiences. And that's just fine, but women out there who have had abortions NEED to know that not all experiences are bad. They are certainly not physically painful. And this decision will only do to you what you let it. You either make amends and accept that it's in the past and wasn't meant to be, or you let it eat you up. I just choose to live happily and have no regrets. After all, there is no reason for them. I'm happy and healthy, and there are so many of us that are!