I cannot believe that I have found this site when I am in the midst of having to go through yet another termination. This will be my third since August 2001.
I do not have any feelings of remorse, guilt, anger or sadness. I rather have an impatience to get it over and done with so I can get back to normal.
My husband and I have two beautiful children - a boy aged 5 and a girl aged 4. Thats all we want. Thats all we can afford. A healthy, beautiful pidgeon pair - who could ask for better?
Hence the reason why we have terminated all subsequent pregnancies. We would rather love, spoil and cherish the two we have, rather than financially, physically and emotionally struggle on three.
I cannot do it again - I've done my share of the sleepless nights, breastfeeding, dirty nappies, etc. I now need the time to get my life back into the swing of things. I only returned to work last year, I'm back at school now and I want to look for a better job, so my husband and I can look to buying our own house. A new baby would really stuff up our plans for a more secure future.
So no, I am not sorry. Not in the slightest. It may sound greedy, selfish or whatever, but we know what we want and we know what we would be capable of handling. A new baby isn't one of them.
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