My name is Jennifer, and I am a mother to several children. I had 5 children, and was in a really bad relationship. I wanted to leave, but never could. I was pregnant or nursing every year from 1989-1997. It was 1998 and I finally had enough. I packed up the kids and went to my parents' house. I was scared, but I knew they would help me. I was there for a week when I realized I was pregnant again. How could I stay gone? How could I work, and care for my family? I would have to go back. I prayed to God that I would miscarry, but for 3 more weeks, nothing changed.
My mother is a very religious woman, and would never hear of one of her daughters having an abortion. I did not know what to do. I called the local abortion clinic, and they could see me in two days. I drove myself there. They had counselors there. They talked to me, kept asking if I was sure that I wanted to do this, if I had any doubts. I told them that if I remained pregnant, I would have to go back to my husband. I knew that if I did that, I would die. I got away, I wanted to stay away.
First they did an ultrasound. I asked if it was a boy or girl. She told me it was early to even tell. I am glad about that. I was 7 weeks along. Since I had to drive myself, they gave me what I believe was a local anesthetic. I was awake and aware the entire time. I had to drive myself home, and care for my 5 children. I was very tired, it was emotional, but I know what I did was best for myself, and for my children.
I do not regret what I have done. If I could go back, I would do the same thing over again. I am still alive, and I am healthy, and so are my children. I freed us, I freed myself.
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