My boyfriend and I met a year ago on online dating service. We both never intended to date someone online, but it just happened. I live in L.A, and he lived in N.Y so it was very difficult. He came down to visit me twice and we fell in love really fast. Since it was so hard because of the distance, he decided to move down to L.A.. Long story short, he stayed with my family for six months but things really didn't work out so he had to go back to his home.

A week after he left, I felt changes in my body. I couldn't eat anything, nothing seemed tasty. I always ate and I loved food. It was bit strange but I didn't really care. But my breasts were so sore and tender that it hurt so much. The time came close to my period date, but I didn't get my period. I was so concerned and worried, I began to cry and doubt the fact that I might be pregnant. So after third day after my expected period date, I woke up early in the morning and left to get a pregnancy test. Both came out to be positive. I panicked and I didn't know what to do. I hurried and called my boyfriend, he was very happy. Which I felt so bad about because I didn't want the baby. I was still in school and I certainly didn't want to raise my kid in a very poor condition. I knew my parents will kill me, and even though they might accept it, they will be so disappointed in me. We were both young and we still had bright future ahead of us. It was just impossible. We got into endless fights and lots of crying, I convinced him to let me get an abortion.

I walked into Planned Parenthood; I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant. I told them about the abortion, they gave me the option of either surgical or medical. Medical was more expensive but I just knew I couldn't do surgical. So I made the appointment for the medical abortion. The next day I went in, paid $445 and got ready to have it. I took the first medicine, which stopped the growth of the baby. The medicine made me nauseous, but I was fine. The doctor told me to take four more pills 24 hours later. She told me the procedure would be really painful and I would eventually have heavy cramps or even fever. I freaked out but she told me to take Tylenol-3 for the pain. So the next day, I took the four medicines and placed it between my gum and cheeks for 30 minutes. It tasted like plastic. I got scared so I took Advil instead of Tylenol because I wanted to see if Advil was enough for the pain. For some reason, I fell asleep and then when I woke up I went to the bathroom, and there I passed down the embryo sac. It wasn't painful for me AT ALL, I just felt tired. I even helped my mom with cooking.

A few hours later, I passed down more clots. For me, it didn't hurt at all which made me worried more since I didn't know it would be this easy. I went for the check up today and I am not pregnant anymore.

I did have feelings of sadness and grief, but I do not regret my decision. My boyfriend was there for me even if he was up in N.Y. I think the hardest part was not seeing him while doing the abortion. I believe that my decision will be so much appreciated when I get my life going and have ability to provide my child the best things.