A couple days ago I had this done. I had to wait 3 weeks for it do be done once I found out. That out of everything was the worst part for me. I wanted it done fast so that the baby wouldn’t grow anymore. When I made it in, the people there were nice and I felt like I was in the right place. The person who took my ultra sound said something that made me feel so much better. She said,”oh you are very early this is very small.” She smiled at me, gave me a pill to calm myself down and explained to me about my blood kind. I’m A- which is different then most. She told me she thinks it would be best with my IV if I took a shoot for my blood kind to avoid complications. So I said sure. The next part was really bad, you sit in a room with only females for almost 2 hours and no one talks. You can hear them take deep breaths; hear them flip through magazines you know they aren’t really reading. The amount of fear and pain those people and I felt no one will understand. There's reasons for us to be there, and the world can't feel what we do, it can be awful. I got called in and my boyfriend came in as well. I got up on the table which really didn’t look that bad. Almost like the one at the doc’s office when he does a pap test. The crew came in very nice people. The head nurse rubbed my legs smiling at me telling me if I wanted laughing gas I could but it may make me laugh which may make them laugh as well. They all made it seem ok and kept trying to make me smile. The 2nd nurse gave me an IV, which didn’t hurt at all, and normally I freak out about needles. Then the drugs hit. The nurse kept trying to ask me about my glasses and my dog. I think I was talking to her because I know what I thinking the answers. Then something really odd happened it was like I opened my eyes and my boyfriend was looking at me really upset and the nurse was saying really loud my name, they asked where’s your dog which I thought was really odd and I told them she was at home, then everything started again. I have asthma and normally a low blood pressure. The nurse said my breathing had changed and then lights out. I was only out for 1 min and I didn’t even know it. They said it happens sometimes and not to worry, after I got up sat in a cool chair had some cookies. Went home and I was fine, I had maybe 1 cramp the hole time and I didn’t really bleed at all. And I wasn’t sore down there at all. I felt back to normal pretty well, had some pizza and some pop walked a round a bit. And the best thing of all was that my mind was at ease after. This is something that I will keep to myself though. My family does not agree with it but I am older now in my 20’s and my business is my business. I shouldn’t share some info of my life with people who don’t care or understand. My sister found out she is pregnant again and she’s keeping it, this made me feel sad. But then I thought. I do have the chance to be like her now. I can get a home. A car the things I need. And be ready.
Whoever reads this? You won’t know how many people understand you and agree till you look. They are out there and there’s a lot of them!
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