I'm glad I went through an abortion. This experience was eye opening and humbling, and gave me a much needed reality check. I'd always been pro-choice, but deep down in the back of my mind, I (smugly) thought "well, not like I'd ever need to get one anyway, I'm not irresponsible or dumb like all the girls who get into these messes with their immature boyfriends...". I was SMART, I was INDEPENDENT...blah blah blah. Well, it was about 4 years ago, I was in a relationship with a really nice guy, and we would start having sex without a condom and then put one on at the last minute. I also said "it's ok to have sex without a condom on the 'safe' days". Well, I took the risks ... and I got pregnant. It was a summer of awful things happening to me - $100 stolen, my apartment flooded, my job was AWFUL. I sincerely believe that it was God trying to send blaring signals to me that I had to stop going down my current path, and start making some real life decisions and changes (It had been 2 years since graduating college and I hadn't been pursuing any type of serious career moves, basically I had been wasting the gifts that I'd been given - a brain, the opportunity for a great education, good friends, etc. I was just sort of loafing around among easy, no-brainer jobs and not putting much effort out there). So I was knocked off my pedestal, and I experienced the fear, confusion, doubts, worries, etc. that millions of women have gone through, and it made me realize a lot about myself and others. For me it's not just about not being sorry - I think going through an unplanned pregnancy and an abortion was something I needed in order to help me learn and grow; to become a less judgemental and more mature person.
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