My name is Cindy and I am 23 years old. I just had an abortion 2 days ago. I have 2 boys ages 5 and 2 and a half from a previous relationship. Almost a year after my break up I met a guy and we started as friends but the feelings grew quickly. We started living together only after a couple months. Before we found out I was pregnant--we both had a feeling I was. For 2 weeks I was going through mood swings, my nipples were so sensitive and hurt, and I craved different things. The day my period was supposed to come we waited hoping it would come but it didn’t. After being 2 days late I knew I was. I didn’t have to take a pregnancy test to confirm it. We talked about it and knew it wasn’t time for a baby yet. We were planning on moving. He was getting laid off in a few months. How could we afford a baby? I called clinics to find out the prices and made an appointment. Wednesday April 20th 8:30 am. I was told to not eat or drink anything after midnight. My boyfriend finally opened up to me this night and told me what he was feeling about this whole situation. We both wished we didn’t have to be going through this. I laid awake all night afraid of what was going to be done...Thinking is this the right decision...
6:00 am the alarm rang but I was up already so I woke my boyfriend up and we started getting ready. We got there early and I filled out the paperwork...Every time the door opened I saw another woman enter I couldnt help but look at her thinking she is going through the same thing I am. I found out I was 6 weeks along. I remember waiting in the waiting room and them calling my name after 2 hours. I was walked a room where I was told to go to the bathroom put a gown on and empty my bladder. There were 4 other women in there and we all began talking about how afraid we were. I was the first name called. I went in the room scared. The nurse greeted me told me her name and told me the doctors name and explained he was going to remove the fetus by suction...I laid up on the bed and the nurse put straps around my legs. Being in there I felt horrible and started crying. The doctor came over to me and told me he was going to give me the anesthesia now which through a needle. When he finished he looked at me and said ok you will go to sleep now and I remember thinking to myself this thing is not working because I am still awake. That was the last thing I remember. I remember being woken up by a nurse as she helped me walk to the chair. I had mild cramps. I knew it was done. I sat there crying and a nurse came over to me wiped my tears and said “everything’s ok don’t cry.” It’s been 2 days and I still think about it. I feel as if it was a bad dream though since I don’t remember anything about the procedure. I don’t regret doing it because I know the time is not right for me to have another baby right now...So yes I am happy with the decision I made.
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