I had an abortion when I was 16. I had only been with my boyfriend for a little over a month and at the time ... well I didn't exactly expect things to "last forever" I think I only slept with him to get it over with ... because I was a virgin ... So yes, I got pregnant my first time EVER having sex ... As soon as I found out, I was astounded ... In my head I thought "how could this happen" but at the same time I was yelling at myself "duh dumbass you know exactly how" On to the point ... A few weeks went by and after having an all-out war with myself I decided I couldn't have this baby ... I couldn't let anyone know...so i decided on abortion ... At the clinics here they charge based on income and I had NONE whatsoever ... and I couldn't ask my boyfriend because I didn't want to tell him I was pregnant ... anyway ... the abortion was nearly free ... but I think that's thanks in large part to the wonderful nurses and doctor who performed the abortion for simply acting as though I'd never been there.... My abortion was quick and clean and I did have some guilt and regret afterwards ... but I soon told myself that things would be better this way....
It's been almost 3 years now ... and I'm happy with my choice though I do have a two month old son now...but what would I have done with TWO babies?!
I'm still with the same guy who turned out to be totally awesome and I'm in love ... with him and my son ... and I'm not sorry.
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