I discovered I was pregnant on May 20, 2005. I went to the doctor for a refill on my birth control pills, and as usual they took a urine sample. Imagine my surprise when they called my name and told me that I was pregnant. I walked out into the waiting room with a look of complete shock. I mean I had just had my period the week before! It was a bit lighter than usual, but still lasted the normal length. My mother took one look at my face and immediately knew what was wrong. I broke down into loud horrible sobs….I kept thinking that I was only 20 years old and that I had just gotten early acceptance to medical school. I knew my boyfriend of 2 years could fully support me and our kid, but I didn’t WANT to have that life yet! Selfishly I kept thinking, I can’t even get into the real clubs yet or even hang out in a bar, but yet I would have a child depending on me. My immediate choice was abortion. My mother drove me to the woman’s clinic that day to find out how much and how far along I was. 7 weeks….7 weeks! I could only imagine the amount of damage I had done….I was still taking my birth control pills and had had a wild wild birthday party the previous month! They had an opening that day…and it just so happened that I had cashed my check that morning. An hour later, I was on the table, having chosen the surgical procedure. Intense cramping and a horrible sucking sensation and it was over. I cried and cried but I was relieved … I could go on to medical school next semester. My mom dropped me off at my apartment that I share with my boyfriend. I went in, took one look at him, and started bawling. I told what I had done, and he started crying too. I first I thought he hated me for making that decision on my own….but when we both calmed down he was upset that I had to go through that alone. He agreed that it was the right choice with him having just graduated from law school a couple of weeks before and me still in school. It is now 5 weeks later and I do not regret my decision and am grateful to live in a time and in a country that allows women to choose.
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